What 2009 has to offer?

its unfortunate to have the first post of 2009 on a very sad note. I am getting crushed by the pressures of my mind. Life is getting all the more mysterious and no reasons to smile. I am playing a big gamble with my life and I do not know the price I am going to pay for this. There are tonnes and tonnes of unanswered questions that need immediate answers or rather in Google way, solutions.

My feelings are getting crushed every day, every minute, every second. Life is getting harder and am not able to comprehend what is happening around me and in me. I am trying to take a long break to escape from this trauma that is haunting me but I do not find a place of retreat.

I believe in creation and therefore, I believe in GOD. I strongly believe that all my pains will one day be healed by my God who loves me more than anyone else on this earth. My wisdom is diminishing and I am emotionally unstable. Criticisms around me are ever increasing. My spirit is reeling under the tremendous pressure caused by problems both self imposed and imposed by others.

Where will I go? What will I do? Who will rescue me? Who will bring a smile on my face? When will all this pain get rid of me?