Melancholia :( - A Walking Zombie......

My heart beats stopped long long ago atleast 2 years ago. I was battling against all odds to win a coveted posession to make my life more meaningful or rather redefine my definition of life. The hurdles that I came across in this journey is too much that my heart aches every second even now. There were several influential people in life before the advent of this unique human being who had such a tremendous impact in my life. She is such a sweet heart that my heart was never able to express my fullest feelings to her at any point in my life. My only motto was to love her all the more than I used to love her the last second I spent in my life. 

I always see life on a more philosophical note rather than being super tradition in approaching life. My heart was in a constant search from the time of my birth to find out the reason of my existence. I was not poised in a very healthy situation all my life. It had several hardships and incredible level of deprivations. First, unfortunately, My mom was killed by an accident when I was 2 yrs old. This was followed by lots of traumatic events in my family. My only strength all in my life was my God - Jesus :)

Rest to be continued :)

You Fill up my Senses :)

My favorite Love anthem is the one of John Denver viz 'The Annie's Song.' The most spirited lines of love and the pleasure of heart's emotions. Its a song beyond comparision with any other song. God bless John for his dedication to love. The concept of love though multifarious, as far as I know, this song is only about a man's love for a woman, who is very close to his heart.

Such a passionate song sung for a love of someone's life, the song lives in many people's heart who are in every corner of this world, eternally in love with this song as this song helps live them share the emotions about their loved ones in a very metaphysical way.

I am no exemption. The minute this song is played, a silence of magnitude unknown and immeasureable develops in my heart and soul. My spirits leave my body and transition into another world around me, my world of dreams about my heart's pleasure who is so close to me yet so far away me :)

I dance with her all through out day and night with this song in the back ground. A deep sense of belonging to her engulfs me, my mind tends to think beyond her, my senses urge to love her every second more than I loved her the last second, asks me cook for her and serve it to her, ask me to thank God every min for showing her to me.

Echoes of my emotions - leaving Google :(

Hi,

Hope you are doing well. I am writing this email to inform you all that today will be my last official day at Google. I was bitten by the MBA(HR) bug since my college days and I can't ask for any time better than now to do it. I will be joining St Joseph's College of Business Administration, Bangalore to do my course. While my mind is ever energetic as always to learn newer things and passionate about my new phase in the journey of my life, my heart is very weak as its stumbling down not able to control the emotions that come when I bid Good bye to my friends at Google. Friends at Google were the best people I can ever ask for in my life in many ways than one. My friendship with you guys initially started more on a work related context and then gradually surpassed many horizons and facets of life. At this stage, friendship has become an integral part of my life and inseparable as they are not two different entities. You guys were a bliss redefined and always provide me with more reasons than one to bring a smile on my face.

I have imbibed several learning lessons from you guys like being more industrious, passionate, adventurous, gutsy, desire to learn new things, sense of humor, public speaking skills, mentorship, crisis/anger management so on and this list is never ending. A very simple fact that I learnt all the above mentioned qualities from my interaction and the time I spent with you guys, has a great value addition in my life. You guys were able to bring a change in me by kindling the fire in me to learn new things from you all. An example to be emulated has been set by you all which is a thing of great pride.

Gratitude is a word that I like the most in English. The meaning of the word when used comes with several strings attached to it and the very word carries not just the meaning established by the language and dictionary, but it carries the emotions of the person who uses the word to convey his heart filled thanks to each and every one who made a difference in his/her life. I do not find a word that is no where even close to what I feel/think when I take a step to thank you guys for all that you had been in my life. I fail miserably not able to thank you as there is no word that could qualify/quantify my feelings of gratitude. But, nevertheless, I thank you all from the deepest pore of my heart.

I know you are all here with a purpose and a passion to follow in future. Be committed to excellence in all that you handle and take up in life. Follow what your heart says and guides you. My favorite quote of Paulo Coelho, When you want something, the whole Universe conspires to help you realise your desire. I am sure you will come out with flying colors in our current job at Google and also future studies/career if you are passionate about what you really want to do in life.