The mystery behind music

There is a hidden mystery that I am not sure if the human mind can unravel. Right from my childhood days, I am very skeptical in my approach towards music. The basis of music is all divine is what we have been told and that is the worldly belief. I believe it too that music is divine. But, its a divine mystery. 

Music is a very powerful magnetic weapon that can bring a change in some one's mood in a fraction of a second. How is this possible. The greatest music minds of all time have something different in them. Its either being over spiritual or being over antispiritual. At the end, both are greats in music.  I would love to know the mystery behind music. 

I have a different kind of disorder when it comes to music. I dream about music and would actually love to listen to music of any kind. however, something holds me back from getting me closer to music. I am not able to figure out what the force exactly is that is holding me back from moving closer to music. 

A mood of resignation sinks in deep into my mind. I am tempted to think profusely about this. But this is one of many questions that I dont find an answer.